Week End Song: It's a Fire

No picture for this week end, I was at the beach the sun was shining and everything was good. However I have a song that is always in my mind whenever I think about people, life in Egypt, society and interactions etc.. The lyrics are not enough to grab the mood of the song because the music and the voice are amazing so check the song if you're interested. I am not sure everyone likes Portishead's style it has this strange mysterious side that I personally really like.  

It's a Fire- Portishead 

It's a fire
These dreams they pass me by
This salvation I desire
Keeps getting me down

Cause we need to
Recognise mistakes
For time and again

So let it be known for what we believe in
I can see no reason for it to fail.... ...

Cause this life is a farce
I can't breathe through this mask
Like a fool
So breathe on, sister breathe on

From this oneself
Testify or tell
Its fooling us now

So let it be known for what we believe in
I can see no reason for it to fail...

Cause this life is a farce
I can't breathe through this mask
Like a fool
So breathe on, little sister, breathe on
Ohh so breathe on, little sister, like a fool

 My interpretation might be wrong, I would really like it if I had other opinions about the song lyrics, feel free to tell me even though I know no one will, I am still a small blog! So, it is not really clear what the song is about, but the part in bold is my favorite part no one could have said it better than this. This life is really a joke and wearing this stupid mask is suffocating! I don't know it just makes me wonder ...I may take the song personally but don't tell me that we are not all wearing a mask and sometimes we have different ones that we adjust to the situations. Don't get me wrong, I know that no one can be a 100% purely transparent. I just think that in my situation I sometimes wear a mask and it annoys me to admit it which is why this song really makes me feel good because I really wish everything was easier and we could all reveal ourselves without having to pretend anything. 

I am an open book I don't like to hide anything I can't hide anything, but it does not work that way in life. I don't know maybe it's Egypt, me, my mixture of cultures my ideas or my craziness. Whatever it is I am sure that life would be so different if we all did not have to pretend that we are this or that because at the end it doesn't matter "this life is a farce" and the persons we are fooling are ourselves. We are the ones who are left alone with our conscience and ourselves and we all know what we are whether we like it or not. I know I don't have to wear this mask but trust me it is inevitable but I guess I am not wearing it when I am writing all these posts and it feels good but still...

 I honestly try a lot not to care about anyone's opinion on my posts, if I wanted I would have written a lot of crap but it is not necessary because I know that I won't like it because it is not that easy letting the mask go. It is a dilemma, I think for me the questions are, Taking off the mask? Keeping it? Wearing it from time to time? After all we are all afraid that we are better with the mask but then again we never know so let's all "breathe on, like a fool". Bon, that's enough I can keep the rest to myself behind my mask ;) 

Rush on the Ride Home

(Photo By Randa El Tahawy)

    There is a rush that comes when you look at the sun setting down. You see colors, you feel the whether changing, you know it is the end of daylight and that there is a night full of events coming up. It is a really messy rush as you can see but I guess that's the beauty of it because it all happens so fast  you don't even see the time passing. ( How long is a sunset anyway? I should look for it) When I look at it, I see all that happened during the day fading away in the colors in such a beautiful way that it makes me want to say "stop, don't go,don't end, please stay a little longer".

Seeing the sun and those warm colors with this road and the cars, it looks like the drive home, the drive back to reality and to the city( I think I was out of the city when I took this picture). This drive back is always the hardest one. When you know that you were able to escape for a while from all the madness of the week, now nature itself is telling you that it is enough, "time to go back". I am glad I was able to capture this moment, this exact moment when you tell yourself "Forever Today" because it is a moment that we all feel when the week end is coming to an end or in fact when any Escape Time that we had is coming to an end.

What is also strange on the picture, is that the sun is not completely down but you know it is  coming down so you, start enjoying every second, every feeling and every change of color of this drive back before it ends. I must sound like a person who really doesn't like the week, but I am not, I just like escaping from time to time because reality can be sometimes and most of the times really stressful and I feel that escaping in any kind of way is the cure to everything. (Unfortunately my escapes sometimes last longer than they should and come at really inappropriate times but I'm working on it)

So this was my picture of the week end, I never thought pictures would be so inspiring.  They  really are because you choose to see what you want in those pictures. In fact, what is more important is that you do not only see, you also feel the elements and I think that no matter how unprofessional this picture is and how ugly the road is ( see those cables and those cars and there is this ambulance!) there is this one detail ( the colors and the sun for me) that changes everything and makes it perfect.

As hard as it is to let the week begin, looking at this picture tells me that it is ok, because there are more escapes to come and more sunsets to come reminding us of this rush ( I really like those rushes ).

Saturday Song

I know the post comes at a really late hour, I was not going to post anything but then I just felt like listening to this song that always makes me smile...

 Semisonic- Secret Smile

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So use it and prove it
Remove this whirling sadness
I'm losing, I'm bluesing
But you can save me from madness

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So save me I'm waiting
I'm needing, hear me pleading
And soothe me, improve me
I'm grieving, I'm barely believing now, now

When you are flying around and around the world
And I'm lying alonely
I know there's something sacred and free reserved
And received by me only

So that was the Saturday song, (I always wanted to be a radio presenter, so that was my chance) 

The song speaks for itself, no need to comment. 

There is more to come...stay tuned..(I have a book and a film review too)

Friday in Picture: Blinding lights?

Note: This post was intended to be published Friday but I got distracted by a sunny afternoon full of events :) 

I am trying out Week End in Pictures and Songs, I will be posting a picture or a song every Friday and Saturday illustrating the mood of the day or the week end. Pictures and songs have a story for every one of us let me know how you feel about it( or don't). The week end is also there so we could sit back and relax and think about anything and everything before going through a week of work, worries and reality. 

This is a picture that I took for my photography class a year ago( just a try out though), I was passing through the Azhar Tunnel with my camera in hand, shooting anything that could be captured. 

Those lights and colors still fascinate me every time I look at them, it is like a rush of lights and colors all appearing in a tiny second while I was pressing my camera's button. 

Which brings me to the mood and thoughts of this Friday, how everything can happen in small fraction of seconds and minutes. The whole course of events can be completely altered by just a fragment of light. The fact that we cannot even grasp this second where everything happens is amazingly strange...You ask yourself how things could have changed and what could have been done but I believe the answer is Nothing it was meant to happen or it was going to happen in any other kind of way. Those strange blinding lights are like a guidance, they lead our way into this messy path of life and the fact that they are blinding is because it is not always easy to follow them...(denial, fear... you name it) 

The mood of today was contemplation of these moments that pass and enjoying them knowing they will lead to somewhere.  Even if we can't see from these lights and colors they will keep shining through our way (I know  this post sounds cheesy trying to be philosophical but that's just who I am,  and yes I am very self conscious too). So we might as well try to feel those moments that pass and savor them.  I am enjoying them and I am happy about that, I can't wait to see what comes next and have a feeling it is going to be good. 

Stay tuned... there is more to come (I have a program for the week)